with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
no longer writing in the third person
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
all that is to say
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
as in
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
magnetisation/form
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
hiding from the rain
autonomy of learning
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
propensity within someone
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
so the method has to be autonomous