idk
much more tactility
i really havent
and the fake qualifier
all that is to say
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
so the method has to be autonomous
so at the end
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
its performative
yeah
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
autonomy of learning
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
like first name
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in a post. I want to be remembered
feel you
sorry i am texting like a slav
i want to do that too
you cannot feed someone truth