idk

much more tactility

i really havent

and the fake qualifier

all that is to say

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

so the method has to be autonomous

so at the end

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

its performative

yeah

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

autonomy of learning

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

we want to live the knowledge too live the content


with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

like first name

It Will Get Lighter

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i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

in a post. I want to be remembered

feel you

sorry i am texting like a slav

i want to do that too

you cannot feed someone truth

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos