was it worth it

wait what is that

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

i really havent

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

so an active mazelike process

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

autonomy of learning

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

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there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Worse Lift

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

I am below everything.

the site i am dreaming


there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.