Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
It Will Get Lighter
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved
but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT
to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over
it will mean that they can stop it.
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
but really the thing should
be autonomous
theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i
want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game
engine
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
no longer writing in the third person
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate,
but I can't
really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
,
I have
nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.
i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of
some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.