i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it


We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
i really havent

2 (actually index). two is company

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Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

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the site i am dreaming

wait what is that

bro i read nothing in my life

I Write Goodbye Letter


i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

hello reader,

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

isaac newton

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

its performative

that looks like my instagram account

barren land

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

propensity within someone