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i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

It's

dusk

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

hiding from the rain

division of reality is straying away from it

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

yeah

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

propensity within someone

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

magnetisation/form

or never left

autonomy of learning

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

Better Lift

i have read not even 1 book

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

barren land

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them