the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

hiding from the rain

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

13, H, grate

Today I felt like starting

division of reality is straying away from it

Slug

I Write Goodbye Letter

2 (actually index). two is company

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

currently

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging