but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

i really havent

fw

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

Today I felt like starting

isaac newton

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

have you read

magnetises a pin

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

Better Lift

god being the centre magnet

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ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

currently

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

abrar?

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting