the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

is this you as well

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

plato

no like which do people call me

propensity within someone

i have read not even 1 book

i was tempted to lie about my name

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

yeah

magnetisation/form

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

barren land

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