you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

magnetisation/form

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

is this you as well

i love it here

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

and the fake qualifier

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

what do you think my name is

feel you

ahnaf abrar

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

we need to be deconstructing our identities

lol

propensity within someone

like first name

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

I am below everything.

no longer writing in the third person

was it worth it

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

its performative

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine

idk

much more tactility

yeah