we can only engage in such a way

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

bro i read nothing in my life

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

so the method has to be autonomous

autonomy of learning

fw

its good

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

division of reality is straying away from it

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

"Put a blanket."

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

like first name

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

you cannot feed someone truth

sorry i am texting like a slav

is everyoneback on tumblr now


i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i want to do that too

no longer writing in the third person

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

its good

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

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