i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

god being the centre magnet

its performative

that looks like my instagram account

we can only engage in such a way

fw

all that is to say

or never left

thank you

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

so an active mazelike process

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

bro i read nothing in my life

so the method has to be autonomous

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

the site i am dreaming

"Put a blanket."

I Write Goodbye Letter

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

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I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.