And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

The Hatton geezer (fuck off) reminds me of this old failed actor who I'd met at a party a few years ago, another man out of time and out of place. This actor had scored a minor role in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels and never really let go of it, had gone on to build his whole identity around it. I can't really blame him.


confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

no like which do people call me

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

not so on: yvf(wthw)

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Pimlico Rats

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.


Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

we need to be deconstructing our identities

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

ahnaf abrar

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

i want to do that too

bro i read nothing in my life

It Will Get Lighter

Actual born-Londoners aren't LARPing like this, they sold their shite family home for a million pounds and moved to Malaga years ago. They have their culture and they've taken it elsewhere.

Slug

like magnets