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Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
autonomy of learning
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
we can only engage in such a way
no longer writing in the third person
as in
all that is to say
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
so the method has to be autonomous
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me