the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
Lift Analysis
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
currently
Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given
division of reality is straying away from it
okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
so the method has to be autonomous
magnetisation/form
propensity within someone
i see a website
its performative