i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
i see a website
it is hopeful
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
barren land
we can only engage in such a way
i dont understand magnetisation
no longer writing in the third person
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate
idk
i was tempted to lie about my name
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
lol yea
thank you
that looks like my instagram account
so an active mazelike process
you cannot feed someone truth
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.
currently
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
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