wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me
or never left
no like which do people call me
whats your name?
lol yea
its good
so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities
we need to be deconstructing our identities
that looks like my instagram account
ahnaf abrar
and the fake qualifier
have you read
idk
i understand
its good short few pages
was it worth it
After I get away from the old racist failed actor, I go to see my Korean colleague. He's just arrived in London and I want to see how he's handling the party. We'd been invited as fresh meat for some of the older, gayer attendees. We aren't aware of that.
i want to do that too
Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
A procession forms behind the French Raj and his fireworks bearer as they head out the door. I've lost my Korean colleague / fresh meat in the chaos. I'm sure he'll be able to fend for himself. They have mandatory military service in Korea.
...
As we're stood there I notice a middle-aged woman staring at us across the room. I'm trying to catch her gaze, but its kind of vacant. I guess she sees me looking and considers it to be an invitation. She floats over to us in this strange dazed way, and on the approach I realise she's staring at (through?) my Korean colleague / fresh meat. She's saying wow, wow, wow. She seems genuinely so delighted, so shocked, so elated.
yes
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate