Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But
like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it
recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare
seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.
My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I
decide not to tell her about it.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
part of an old note. It will get lighter.
so an active mazelike process
It's
dusk
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that
it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
Worse Lift
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully
and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
Rain, starting
god being the centre magnet
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of
some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes. The conversation
drifts to the pleasantness of warm lighting and whether anyone needs a smart
home. I interrupt her to make a joke about the French Raj as he runs up the
causeway. We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.
A roll of 50s is one of the items he dumps
onto my table during the search.
Of course it is. He asks if I'm a delivery boy or a
setter or this or that diamond related job. I keep saying no, I'm enjoying hearing all of these new words. Eventually I tell him that I work in film, which is kind of true. He asks where I'm filming. I'm not filming. He tells me that I can't be that good at it then. He then tells me that he made a film once, in the 80s. It was called Pimlico Rats.
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
IWGD
