part of an old note. It will get lighter.
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i
didn’t watch it then
you cannot feed someone truth
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
i dont understand magnetisation
so an active mazelike process
i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some
insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream
education now
⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the
dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh
meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
