Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

in a post. I want to be remembered

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

what do you mean

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

i was tempted to lie about my name

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

no i haven't really read anything

like first name

so the method has to be autonomous

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

sorry i am texting like a slav

i dont understand magnetisation

so an active mazelike process

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

is everyoneback on tumblr now

its performative

i really havent

lol yea

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

magnetisation/form

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

barren land

yeah

its good short few pages

your feed looks like my tumblr

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class