I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

its performative

its good

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

lol

we can only engage in such a way

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

division of reality is straying away from it

autonomy of learning

magnetisation/form

so the method has to be autonomous

all that is to say

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

sorry i am texting like a slav

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

Picture

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

propensity within someone

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

something religious, a kind of complex, it will get lighter, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

have you read

its good

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.