Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

much more tactility

what do you think my name is

like first name

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

or never left

yeah

autonomy of learning

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

its good

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

i see a website

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

hiding from the rain

1

I am below everything.

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

you cannot feed someone truth

no longer writing in the third person

no i haven't really read anything

so at the end

we need to be deconstructing our identities

propensity within someone

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

It Will Get Lighter

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

i understand