something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

It Will Get Lighter

IWGD

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

it is hopeful

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

no longer writing in the third person

Rain, starting

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

not their contents

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me. The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

or never left

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

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