the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

ahnaf abrar

all that is to say

not their contents

so the method has to be autonomous

abrar?

thank you

magnetisation/form

as in

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.

i was tempted to lie about my name

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

the site i am dreaming

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

It Will Get Lighter

13, H, grate

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

...

theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine