i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

its performative

13, H, grate

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

really i want the internet

no longer writing in the third person

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

propensity within someone

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

so an active mazelike process

currently

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

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something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

you have a beautiful account btw

magnetisation/form

autonomy of learning

all that is to say

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

so at the end

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life