i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media,
both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more
personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more
romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
Today I felt like starting
IWGD
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing,
etc.
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate,
but I can't
really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
,
I
have nothing to do, I'm
watching them, trying to figure it out.
Rain, starting
really i want the internet
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording
of his website, something that could be found within it
Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
god being the centre magnet
Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently
fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.