Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the
morning, when I'm not quite right.
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of
some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling
something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind
of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i
didn’t watch it then
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
bro i read nothing in my life
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my
silmarillion, my tempelos
Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
It Will Get Lighter
