it is hopeful

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

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We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

its performative

so the method has to be autonomous

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i really havent

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

i want to do that too

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

we need to be deconstructing our identities

autonomy of learning

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

is this you as well