a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Rain, starting

no longer writing in the third person

i dont understand magnetisation

i have read not even 1 book

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

feel you

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

as in

you cannot feed someone truth

It Will Get Lighter

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

god being the centre magnet

isaac

division of reality is straying away from it

like magnets

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

...

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

is this you as well