okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

isaac newton

no i haven't really read anything

autonomy of learning

what do you think my name is

no longer writing in the third person

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

you have a beautiful account btw

so at the end

i was tempted to lie about my name

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

was it worth it

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

propensity within someone

but really the thing should be autonomous

you cannot feed someone truth

i want to do that too

Style

like first name

abrar?