I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

Lift Analysis

feel you

its good

no i haven't really read anything

division of reality is straying away from it

isaac

as in

much more tactility

magnetisation/form

plato

i was tempted to lie about my name

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

its performative

so an active mazelike process

ion

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

is this you as well

no like which do people call me

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

so the method has to be autonomous

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

god being the centre magnet

i want to do that too

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

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