no longer writing in the third person

we need to be deconstructing our identities

god being the centre magnet

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

isaac

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

It Will Get Lighter

its good

its good

ion

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

sorry i am texting like a slav

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

its performative

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

magnetises a pin

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

not their contents

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

Rain, starting

Better Lift

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

division of reality is straying away from it

1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

hiding from the rain