i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

we can only engage in such a way

wait what is that

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class


part of an old note. It will get lighter.

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

i really havent

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

this will be about a slug

division of reality is straying away from it

was it worth it

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

It Will Get Lighter

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

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mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

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i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

and the fake qualifier

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever