I am below everything.

Worse Lift

currently

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

magnetises a pin

i really havent

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

send your tumblr

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

like first name

isaac

isaac newton

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

so an active mazelike process

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

i understand

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

division of reality is straying away from it

autonomy of learning

which magnetises chains of pins

so at the end

yeah

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

abrar?

yeah

feel you

we need to be deconstructing our identities

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

idk

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

no i haven't really read anything

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

no longer writing in the third person