As I'm trying to tell my Korean colleague / fresh meat that this is abnormal, that most people in England aren't like this, the host of the party emerges from the bathroom to a roar of laughter and applause. He's a fat middle aged Frenchman and he's changed into traditional Indian dress and a turban. He looks fucking ridiculous. I try to back away, to avoid the inevitable photo of me in this moment that will one day appear to ruin my life, but everyone is crowding around, trapping me in the middle of it.
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
"Put a blanket."
no longer writing in the third person
i love it here
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
and the fake qualifier
we need to be deconstructing our identities
magnetises a pin
I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?
its good
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i was tempted to lie about my name
abrar?
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
i want to do that too
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
no i haven't really read anything
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
i have read not even 1 book
that looks like my instagram account
it is hopeful
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
which magnetises chains of pins
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
is this you as well