There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

hiding from the rain

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

in a post. I want to be remembered

what do you mean

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

like first name

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

feel you

autonomy of learning

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

i understand

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

was it worth it

so the method has to be autonomous

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.