the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Can I see
hiding from the rain
you have a beautiful account btw
feel you
not their contents
as in
ahnaf abrar
much more tactility
what do you think my name is
its good
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
i want to do that too
no i haven't really read anything
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
really i want the internet
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i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it