was it worth it

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

no longer writing in the third person

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

division of reality is straying away from it

i have read not even 1 book

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

much more tactility

not their contents

as in

that looks like my instagram account

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

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okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

propensity within someone

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression