i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Rain, starting

plato

idk

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

we need to be deconstructing our identities

i want to do that too

It's

dusk

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

so an active mazelike process

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

and the fake qualifier

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.