the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

13, H, grate

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

i see a website

I am below everything.

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

abrar?

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i understand

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you

i dont understand magnetisation

much more tactility