i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media,
both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
It Will Get Lighter
no like which do people call me
Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
It Will Get Lighter
We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty
cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my
silmarillion, my tempelos
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully
and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
