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something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

like first name

i really havent

isaac

is this you as well

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

feel you

i love it here

its good short few pages

we need to be deconstructing our identities

ahnaf abrar

its good

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

ion

whats your name?

i was tempted to lie about my name

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

...

not so on: yvf(wthw)

was it worth it

no like which do people call me

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

wait what is that

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

I Write Goodbye Letter

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.


nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

plato

god being the centre magnet

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as in

thank you

which magnetises chains of pins