Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
kind of mythopoesis
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
i am quite illiterate on producing technology
theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine
currently
I am below everything.
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
so at the end
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
we can only engage in such a way
was it worth it
what do you think my name is
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
abrar?
ahnaf abrar
no i haven't really read anything
we need to be deconstructing our identities
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
its good short few pages
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
December 2025
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
like magnets
i want to do that too
lol yea