no longer writing in the third person

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i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

December 2025

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Today I felt like starting

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

the site i am dreaming

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

currently

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

lol

really i want the internet

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

so at the end

much more tactility

hiding from the rain

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate