Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.currently
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
no longer writing in the third person
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
no like which do people call me
or never left
wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
no i haven't really read anything
so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities
i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason