think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream
education now
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like
text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru
shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by
(oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always
interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read
texts.
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant
articulate
we can only engage in such a way
i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls
confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with
it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.
to work in time
to get to
the timeless, perfection thru chaos
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion,
and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be
processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your
subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.
we need to be deconstructing our identities
amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off
board but you seemed interesting
The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the
morning, when I'm not quite right.
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks
for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging