I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

you cannot feed someone truth

propensity within someone

so the method has to be autonomous

its performative

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

as in

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

magnetisation/form

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

all that is to say

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

so an active mazelike process

lol yea

idk

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Slug

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

...

It Will Get Lighter

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

Lift Analysis

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you