Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

we need to be deconstructing our identities

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

division of reality is straying away from it

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all that is to say

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Lift Analysis

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

I am below everything.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

its performative

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