really i want the internet

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

but i respect your search

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

ion

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

no like which do people call me

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

you cannot feed someone truth

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

i have read not even 1 book

i was tempted to lie about my name

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

plato

your feed looks like my tumblr

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now