I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

god "possessing" artists "possessing" people

not their contents

i love it here

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

propensity within someone

its good

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

plato

ion

is this you as well

all that is to say

so the method has to be autonomous

thank you

okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.